I do not really wonder how the people from my past are doing.
I've moved on.
The term "past" refers to those with whom I no longer have a relationship, including friends, family, and even cousins.
Those relationships were broken, and there's no need to fix them.
On Monday, I got a private message from a cousin about another family member that I have been estranged from for over 5 years. The communication triggered a range of emotions, causing me to consider the reasons for our distance. As I sat down to collect my thoughts, I wondered whether to ignore the message or respond.
To be honest, I don't really think there was a need for that message, but I answered.
"He's someone I used to know but have no relationship with anymore."
I was told by someone that I was so maldita.
Was I mean?
Was that rude?
Did I say something naughty?
Or was I a bitch for being honest?
I asked that family member to stay because if we continue to be distant, we may become accustomed to being estranged in each other's lives.
His last messages were hurtful. He said that my sending him a message disturbed their peace. Along with that were "fuck yous."
I did not deserve those words, but I respected his decision.
When he left the relationship, I realized he was true about the serenity part, and that I am also peaceful without him.
I don't hate him. That's a waste of my energy. In fact, I considered it as a blessing in disguise.
I wish him and his family well.
But I don't think I can offer any friendship anymore.
I love myself, and I am at peace.
I am in my 50s, and I am really passionate about being true.
So was I being maldita?
